Well, here I am, on Holy Saturday, the night before Easter Sunday. Once again, I find myself in what we TTC'ers refer to as the "Two Week Wait" or (2WW) which is the time between ovulation and the beginning of the menstrual cycle. The time in which there is nothing one can do but.... wait. Though I know it is in no way anything close to what Jesus went through, I cannot help but wonder how He was able to wait for what was coming. I have found myself in this situation time and time again. Trying to find ways to occupy my time in order for these 2 weeks to go by quicker. It never does.
My sister, C, came in town today for Easter. She brought me a gift, a beautiful moonstone necklace. Included with it is a description of what moonstone is beneficial for... "the female reproductive cycle, menstrual-related disease and tension, PMS, hormonal balance, childbirth, pregnancy and insomnia...A stone of new beginnings and filled with passive Receptive feminine energy. It balances female-male energy...Amplifies emotions in sensitive people and enhances lucid dreaming."
I have 4 wonderful, wise, older sisters. But, C and I have a special, unspoken bond. C and her husband tried to conceive for many years, went through procedures, medications, and lots of stress. A little over 3 years ago, they discovered that they were meant to be parents through adoption. I have so much love and respect for C and her husband. It helps just having someone there who has been through so much of this and feels my pain.
I am now wearing this moonstone around my neck. It feels peaceful.
I am hopeful today. I heard something in church last week that really hit home, "Stop limiting your future in the terms of your past, but start defining it in the terms of your GOD."